I haven't written on here for a long time mainly because I felt that I wasn't making much progress towards my fitness goals. Recently I realised that although I may not be as cardiovascularly fit or as strong muscularly as I used to be, I have progressed a hec of a lot in my mental fitness and general well being. I used to get those black depressions that came out of no where and made you feel that life wasn't worth living. Now, remembering that feeling is like remembering a different person. It's been a gradual process of cutting things out of my life (alcohol, caffeine, stress, junk food etc) and adding things in and just because I haven't dropped two dress sizes and been fit enough to hike up a Munro again doesn't make it any less of a journey. Maybe improving my general wellbeing is part of the process to becoming "fit" again. So really, I suppose I have decided to congratulate myself for the improvements I have made and see them as a big step along the way and not a failure to get fit.